I made it. Senior Year!

Screen Shot 2018-06-22 at 1.11.42 AMThis is it. I’m going into my final year of high school, and I didnt think I would ever make it.

I have never talked about my experience in high school to many people. I just tell them that frankly, I’m extremely happy it is only 4 years and I never have to go back.

Honest opinion of high school from a teenager: it’s a terrifying roller coaster. You think you’re about to fall off the edge and then it turns you another way. At times, it can be smooth sailing and you stop and appreciate the view of your surroundings. Other times you feel like your entire world has turned upside down and the up and down will never stop. But then its over, and you cant decide if that ride of a year made you want to just run away, or go for another ride.

High school has not always been easy. I wrote this to myself in my sophomore year:

“12 months ago I didn’t really expect to be here. I didn’t really expect to still be breathing. 12 months ago I was fully giving up. My anxiety was at its worst, I had depression, and I was contemplating why I was still around. My father and I had a lot of issues. We had a lot of them in the past and still do even to this day. I had no friends except for one. And I was losing her as well. 12 months ago I felt the most alone I have ever felt in my lifetime. 12 months ago I was in the worst state I have seen myself ever before and I wasn’t expecting myself to get better because I thought the world hated me. There was a drastic change in my life that tipped me over the edge I wasn’t expecting to recover from it. In 12 months I have. My anxiety has lessened to the point where I can walk into a room full of people and not want to break down. I’m not as sad although I do have those days where I’m not okay but I am working on it. I have worked through most of my insecurities and now I’m starting to like what I see in the mirror and appreciate myself more. I’m starting to become more confident and secure in who I am as a person. In 12 months I have gained lifelong friends with lifelong memories. In 12 months I have learned that even at your worst even when you feel like you can’t move forward, you can. I’m 12 months I have learnt that one day you will be okay. One day you will stand back for a second and realize how far you have come. A year ago I did not think I would be in a happy relationship. A year ago I didn’t think I would have friends. A year ago I didn’t think I would be able to cut out my dad out of my life. A year ago I did not think I would ever be able to fall asleep without crying. A year ago I did not think I would make it past sophomore year. But I did. A year ago I did not think I would be writing something like this. But I am. And I’m forever grateful that I pushed through everything cause I didn’t think I would be able to.”

I was at my very best in high school. I had a GPA of about 3.3, which is a lot better than the 0.6 GPA I had as a freshman. I met my boyfriend, had an amazing group of friends, and started to like school again.

Over the summer I could sense that my anxiety was coming back full blast again, the depression too. I started having days where I didnt want to go out or talk to anyone even though nothing had happened to me or caused it. I was so confused.

My cousin then came to visit me for a couple weeks and that brought my spirits back up and I felt completely fine again. Actually, a lot more than fine, I felt like I was on the top of the world. When she left, I carried on feeling that way until the first week into August. The thought of going back to school every day made me terrified. I couldn’t handle thinking about it and the first day of school I ended up waking up at 5, not being about to fall back asleep, and throwing up because I was stressed about the year ahead of me.

if only I knew how to prepare myself.

The first semester was going great until about November. By then I was doing okay in school, but I just hated going and figured that I could push through it. After the week off for Thanksgiving, I didnt want to go back. I knew there was only a month until Christmas break… but at the time it seemed like it was never going to come. I felt so trapped just being there every day. Just being at school gave me anxiety. It was beyond hard for me to pay attention because the only thing on my mind was “I need to get out of here”. I couldn’t think about the school work. I just kept thinking that I was going to have an anxiety attack. I kept thinking about how much school effects me. I started falling behind on the work and i would go home and try to my homework, and I would just end up sleeping or crying because i felt like i couldn’t understand any of it. i felt stupid. Stupid for not being able to understand chemistry or solve a simple math problem.

In December, i felt something inside me break. I couldn’t handle anything anymore. But i put on this front like i could, just like the saying goes- fake it till you make it.

I was too exhausted to fake it. too exhausted to go to classes that i couldn’t understand but try to act like i did. I couldn’t fake it anymore. I just couldn’t handle sitting at school.

I gave it my all from January to March. It was so hard waking up every day to go to a place that made me feel my worst. I felt alone. This is nothing to do with my school either because it is a really good high school and I wish I could’ve had a better experience with it. The counsellors there are amazing, the teachers, for the most part, are compassionate and understanding. The staff there is welcoming and they try your best to help you feel like you aren’t alone, that you aren’t suffering. I know they help a lot of kids too, but I couldn’t handle being there and i still don’t know the exact reason why.

I was done by April. I gave up and i started missing school. It started off by just a couple classes and then it turned into whole days. I would drive to school just to sit in the parking lot and have an anxiety attack and go home. I would try to calm down but the minute i got there i felt weak. I felt like i couldn’t do it.

I ended up applying for Independent Studies by May. I knew it was too late to go into it for this school year, but I know this is the right decision for senior year.

Junior Year was the worst year of high school for me. My anxiety and depression got the better of me. I know a lot of people will view it as its just a teen hating school, but its a lot worse than that. I would do ANYTHING just to feel okay at school, but i dont at all.

Some things in life we cant deal with and we cant push through. Sometimes it is better to put your mental health first, then to sacrifice it and spiral downhill.

HOTLINES

I love you and it will be okay. You can make it to the next day even if it feels like you have nothing left. I promise that you will be able to see the light in the dark.

WHO TO TALK TO AT SCHOOL WHEN SCHOOL IS TOO MUCH:

My advice about this is reaching out to your parents or a parental figure that you can go to for advice. Reach out to the school. Most school (I don’t know if all do) have on campus counsellors for kids to see. Talk to your Academic Counselor (AC) as well. They can walk you through it and help you every step of the way. Most of all, talk to your teachers, they see you every day and if you don’t then they cant read your mind and understand why you are missing their class, I say that from experience. I was always scared to talk to them, I thought they wouldn’t understand. Teachers are people too and I think students forget that they do have hearts and they do care about their students. Schools are dedicated to helping you feel safe and secure and they can help you find a solution, whether it is independent studies, homeschooling, or just simply allowing you to take breaks in the office if your mental health is affecting you in class. My comment section is always open too!

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June Favorites!

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June for me has been a very tranquil month. This month consisted of relaxing days, lemonade, beach trips, and an amazing start to the summer.

Also, very VERY thankful school is out and I don’t have to deal with it until August ((((((:
It just always gave me so much anxiety and made me really really depressed. if you want to read more about that, go check out my anxiety and depression & school post!

Now on to my favorites!

COTM: YELLOW 
QOTD: “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone

BEAUTY PRODUCTS

  1. Maybelline Fit Me! Foundation
    • This foundation I bought a while ago when Maybelline products were on sale in my local CVS. I didn’t realize at the time of purchase that it wasn’t my shade. I was really disappointed when I got home to see that they didn’t match my skin. After going to the beach and driving with the top off of Ava (my jeep), my skin was darker than my Tarte Shape Tape Foundation and concealer. It was making me look deathly pale. I then got the Fit Me out from my drawer and decided to try it. It matched my skin tone perfectly.
    • This foundation applies super smooth and has a flawless finish. It’s medium coverage but perfect for the summer. if you want full coverage, it is buildable, but keep in mind that it does oxidize. It will stay on all day without getting cakey too! (pls sponsor me Maybelline)
  2. ColourPop Super Shock Highlighter: Flexitarian
    • This highlight is such a strobey highlight and it looks like it melts into your skin. All I can say is I have and will ALWAYS love ColourPop highlighters.

FOOD/DRINK

  1. ARIZONA TEA W/ HONEY AND GINSENG
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    • It seriously is the perfect drink. I drink it outside with my feet in the pool, and when it’s iced, it’s the perfect drink to cool you down on a hot summer day.
    • I used to drink this when I was younger but for some reason, I stopped. I started drinking more soda and it was terrible. I love this drink a whole lot more and it’s not doing as much damage to my body. 
  2. TRADITIONAL ENGLISH SCONES (IMAGE SHOWN)
  3. TRADER JOE’S MILK CHOCOLATE COVERED PEANUT BUTTER PRETZELS

MOVIES/TV SHOW OF THE MONTH (NETFLIX)

  • MOVIE: COCO
    • I can honestly say that this movie is something anyone of any age should see
  • TV SHOW: DYNASTY
    • I binge watched this show within a couple days! it was really intriguing and is a remake of the original. I can’t wait for season 2!

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MUSIC
(APPLE MUSIC @CHARLYEKENNEDY)

  • PLAYLIST OF THE MONTH: STATE OF MIND
  • SONG OF THE MONTH: NO TEARS LEFT TO CRY BY ARIANA GRANDE (THE QUEEN)

please go follow me on apple music and add my playlist, it’s seriously perfect for car rides at any time and there’s a lot of songs on there that have helped me calm down while I’m having anxiety

PLACE’S OF THE MONTH (I COULDNT DECIDE BETWEEN THE 2)

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  • COFFEE GUYS
    • Their coffee is my favorite by far now. I had the Iced Vanilla Latte and a Nutella cragel (only thing I would say is that the Nutella cragel did NOT have enough Nutella in it, if they gave you a side of Nutella in a little cup thing they way they do with cream cheese it would be INCREDIBLE)! My boyfriend had a Caramel Macchiato (If you ask them to make it the same style as Starbucks they will) and a Cinnamon cragel with cream cheese. Both of our orders were so good!
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    • The Thai Tea and Green Tea Waffles here are EVERYTHING. (also look at my boyfriend in the back, he is so cute & hates posing for me lol)

PICTURES OF THE MONTH:

 

 

Over $100 Ulta Haul!

This week I decided to take a trip to Ulta with my best friend because we both needed something to cheer us up. This was the damage 3 hours later, but I am loving every single one of these products! 

I’ve decided that instead of linking these to their each individual brand website, the links will all be to Ulta’s website (: that way if you want a couple of these products, you can get them all in one place!

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PRODUCTS:

Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara

Benefit Primer the POREfessional 

ColourPop YES, PLEASE! Palette

Stila Heaven’s Hue Highlighter

Urban Decay Heavy Metal Glitter Liquid Eyeliner

Mario Badescu Facial Spray with Aloe, Herbs and Rosewater

1. Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara: $23

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This mascara has always been a must-have for me (to the point where I am restocking my BACKUP)! Too Faced also has a waterproof version of this. The formula, the wand, everything about it I love. It makes my lashes look so full and I use this everyday!

2. Benefit Primer the POREfessional: $31 

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Most days when I’m wearing makeup I forget to put my primer before foundation. I’ll be halfway through my foundation and look over and see my primers just sitting there. Then halfway through the day my friends and family will hear me complaining that my foundation doesn’t look as good as it did in the morning. When I started using primers I didn’t know what I was looking for. When I discovered this and the Too Faced Hangover Primer, I started noticing a difference in how my skin looked and how my foundation applied and I haven’t gone back to no primer since. THIS HAS BEEN MY HOLY GRAIL PRIMER FOR A YEAR NOW!

3. ColourPop YES PLEASE! Palette: $16 

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This is a brand new purchase. Ulta just put out a ColourPop section in the store near me and everything has been sold out for a while. I have been wanting to get my hands on some more ColourPop since my last order last summer. I walked past the section again and saw that everything was restocked! The minute I laid eyes on this palette I was obsessing over the summer colours of it and just imagining all the look I could do with this! The colours are super pigmented! I will be doing another post on just this palette uploading on Wednesday!

4. Stila Heaven’s Hue Highlighter: $32

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I have super fair skin and there aren’t a lot of highlighters that really work for me without leaving a different colour tone on my face. I’ve always wanted to be able to use a highlighter that looks like its melting into my skin and this is exactly that! 

SHADE: OPULENCE

5. Urban Decay Heavy Metal Glitter Eyeliner: $20

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One of my really good friends showed me this liner a while ago and I have always wanted to buy one just never convinced myself to. I would always do the whole, ” I shouldn’t spend the money on it but I really want it but I’m not going to get it” thing but I realized that sometimes, especially with makeup, it is okay to treat yourself here and there!

SHADE: MIDNIGHT COWBOY

6. Mario Badescu Facial Spray With Aloe, Herbs and Rosewater: $12

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Last but not least, the best facial spray (also a hairspray) I have ever used. I’ve noticed that it has not only made my skin feel better but also helped clear up and stop pimples popping up on my face. It helps keep my skin really hydrated. I spray it on me before foundation and at night before I go to sleep. Also, it smells incredible!

SIZE: 12.0 OZ

Anxiety & Insecurities

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Throughout my life, I have always worried about what people are thinking.

Does my hair look okay, are they judging my weight, my makeup, my height, is there something on my face, did I say the wrong thing, do they like me… no, they hate me, do I smell okay, do I look okay?

The entire time I went through this, asking myself a million questions about what was going on in someone else’s mind that I didn’t have an answer to, I didn’t ask myself if I felt okay. I just asked myself if I looked okay, and it brought me down because my answer was always a simple no.

I didn’t feel like I was accepted by societies standards (whatever they are) and it brought me down. I had a list of standards in my head and in my eyes, I didn’t fit into any of them.

If anyone complimented me, I couldn’t take it. It is not that I just didn’t know what to say, its that I thought they were lying to me. I thought that if anyone called me pretty it was in a passive-aggressive way and they were just judging me.

I created a monster voice in the back of my head and I let it take over. I couldn’t walk past a mirror without making sure I looked okay, without fixing my hair or turning to the side and judging the fat on my stomach or my thighs or my double chin.

I was insecure no matter what it was. I would wake up extra early and spend 3 hours getting ready from hair to makeup to clothes.

I couldn’t go outside wearing a crop top or shorts. I was in a hoodie and leggings in extremely hot weather. I would refuse to leave my house without makeup on. I couldn’t upload a picture if I felt that I didn’t look perfect. There were nights where I would think awful things about myself and cry myself asleep.

I felt trapped in a body that I chose to hate instead of love. I felt that I wasn’t good enough or deserving enough to love myself, let alone have someone else love me.

I pushed everyone away.

The saying goes that you cant love anybody else until you love yourself. And I think that is partially true. I do believe that you need to love yourself and treat your body as a temple, but I also know that no one loves themselves 100% of the time. Everyone picks something on them at some point that they don’t like, and that is completely okay.

My weight has been a huge factor in creating big insecurities for me throughout my life, when I was at my skinniest I thought I was fat. But I have a problem with overeating the worst things for you.

I realized last summer that for the first time in my life, I am secure as a person. I didn’t take major steps to get there but I realized what was negatively impacting how I felt and I decided to do something about it and take the time to remove anything negatively impacting me and heal from it. Healing made me realize that the only opinion at the end of the day that I need to think about is my own. I don’t need to care if I’m not the skinniest person and I don’t need to worry if someone is judging me for it because they can keep their negativity. It’s my life, it’s my body, and I can and will do what I want with it.

I got so caught up in trying to look the best and be the best that I started to lose track of how I was feeling. I lost myself during that entire process and just became this insanely insecure person who made it seem like she had everything in control and was always super cheerful and happy.

But at the end of the day, I wasn’t

I wasn’t happy with myself. Most of all, I wasn’t happy with what I looked like or what went through my mind every day. I was exhausted. It was consuming me trying to worry about everyone’s thoughts all at once. Every day I would look in the mirror and feel like a piece of shit because of it. I felt like I could never be beautiful or happy.

It took time but I realized that this is my body. This is my weight. I can choose to work hard and lose weight THE HEALTHY WAY, or I can embrace my curves and keep myself healthy while learning to love every inch of me.

I can choose to not worry about what everyone else is thinking. I can decide if I want to worry about everyone else or just worry about myself. But that is a hard thing to gain control of. Your mind is the hardest thing to change. It’s hard to embrace your beautiful self when all you’ve done is hate yourself.

I realized it takes more effort to hate yourself then love yourself. It takes more effort to worry about everyone else. It takes more effort to worry about what is going on everyone else’s mind rather than just keeping positive thoughts in yours.

I learned to love myself, and that is something everyone should learn to do. You are you for a reason, you’re beautiful.

Anxiety, Depression & School

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How School Impacts My Anxiety And Depression

I’m honestly nervous to write and publish this post because it’s not something I’ve shared with a lot of people, I don’t even really know how to title this. Sometimes I feel like I really am hiding part of myself, part of my life.

I started off this blog and I wanted to be, well, basic. I was just doing regular stuff that a lot of bloggers do and it wasn’t making me happy. I was so concerned on how people judged my blog, I wanted to look like the professionals.

The trouble I had with that is I’m not a professional at this. I don’t want to blog only about everyday beauty hacks or do DIY’s or become a fake me through the internet.

As much as I love makeup, and I will still post about that, I just want to keep it real as well and try to make at least one person who is going through this feel less alone.

I have anxiety and depression. I have had anxiety and depression for a long time. School does impact this and make it a lot worse on a day to day basis.

This isn’t something that I’m closed off about though because I do love giving advice and trying to help people, which is why I decided to write this.

Anxiety has been a very big part of my life. Mainly with school and I cant find a lot of words to describe the way it makes me feel.

I feel trapped and alone in a school of over 700 people.

This is where a lot of people get confused because I do have friends. I have the most amazing friends I could ask for.

This is nothing to do with my school either because it is a really good high school and I wish I could’ve had a better experience with it. The counsellors there are amazing, the teachers, for the most part, are compassionate and understanding. The staff there is welcoming and they try your best to help you feel like you aren’t alone, that you aren’t suffering. I know they help a lot of kids too, but I couldn’t handle being there.

I would be sitting in class and have to leave to go to the bathroom because I was crying. I would just sit there freaking out, for no reason. It’s not the school fault or any other kids fault, I just couldn’t be there. I still can’t be there.

During the school year, I’d feel super depressed. I couldn’t get out of bed in the morning and push myself, knowing I had to go to school. I couldn’t handle being at school for more than 2 hours without freaking out and wanting to go home. I felt like I was going to throw up from my anxiety. I felt so emotionally unstable and that freaked me out even more.

School, in general, was taking a huge toll on my mental health and I felt like I was tumbling down a hill that had no end. I’m sure everyone has felt like they lost a bit of control one way or another on a small or large scale.

Junior year of high school, mainly the second semester, was probably one of the worst years for me, again nothing to do with my school, it’s just how I felt. I tried so hard the first semester to push through it and make it to Christmas break. I wanted to try to have good grades and just survive the year. I felt like my grades were what get me to the next step in my future, that I wouldn’t have one if I didn’t have good grades. (That isn’t the case!)

When Christmas break was over I was in tears. I was so anxious for school to start up again. I didn’t want to go back. I didn’t want to get out of bed and I didn’t want to do anything. I stayed in my house and I didn’t want to go out.

I was trying to find things that made me happy and I just couldn’t bring myself to be positive. I started giving up in school just to try to keep a hold on my mental health. My absences were starting to build up. I would make an excuse as to why I should be late, why I had to miss a day. I could see myself getting even more anxiety and even more depressed every day.

I then started to feel even worse when I missed school. It was a never-ending cycle of makeup work that I didn’t want to deal with, but most of all, I felt like I was letting my mum down. I felt like I was letting my teachers down. I felt like I let myself down.

Anxiety and Depression completely tipped my world upside down and then it felt like it smashed it into pieces and every second of it was awful.

I then realized that I could fully see what was affecting me so much, and that was school. it was making every day so much harder and that wasn’t because of the work or the people, I just couldn’t handle being there, and that is okay. Some things in life we cant deal with and we cant push through. Sometimes it is better to put your mental health first, then to sacrifice it and spiral downhill. 

At the end of Junior Year, after nightly conversations with my mum, I ended up talking to my school in more detail as to what I went through and they were very supportive in helping me find the best solution.

My advice about this is reaching out to your parents or a parental figure that you can go to for advice. Reach out to the school. Most school (I don’t know if all do) have on campus counsellors for kids to see. Talk to your Academic Counselor (AC) as well. They can walk you through it and help you every step of the way. Most of all, talk to your teachers, they see you every day and if you don’t then they cant read your mind and understand why you are missing their class, I say that from experience. I was always scared to talk to them, I thought they wouldn’t understand. Teachers are people too and I think students forget that they do have hearts and they do care about their students. Schools are dedicated to helping you feel safe and secure and they can help you find a solution, whether it is independent studies, homeschooling, or just simply allowing you to take breaks in the office if your mental health is affecting you in class. My comment section is always open too!

As for my anxiety and depression now the school year is over, I am pushing through it and I feel a lot happier knowing I’m working on helping myself. There are so many things that make me happy, so many people that have helped me and so many different ways that I have learned to cope with it and that is why I’ve decided to make this into a series. I want to help people in any way that I can.

BEING ABLE TO PINPOINT THE CAUSE OF NEGATIVE EMOTIONS IS SOMETHING EVERY ONE DESERVES

HOTLINES

TARTE SHAPE TAPE FOUNDATION REVIEW (MATTE)

First off, these opinions are my OWN!

I love Tarte. Their cosmetics line is incredible, but I am extremely disappointed with the shade range of their new foundation that is based on the Tape Shape Concealer. The shade range is extremely small and if you aren’t going to have a shade for everyone, then don’t put it out there!

YES, I did find my shade after so many swatches, and YES, I really do like this foundation! However, until Tarte comes out with MORE of a shade range, then not many people will support it or their makeup line. Tarte is one of my favourite makeup brands, so it makes me genuinely sad to see how little they tried for their customers while making this product.

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There are so many other shades on the darker end of the range that they skipped. It’s like they started off their essay and just forgot to add the last 4 paragraphs and turned it in expecting an A+??

They did have a lot of light shades that they released but I am extremely pale, and it is EXTREMELY hard to find my shade and something that keeps my skin hydrated. I was very disappointed when I couldn’t find my shade in the hydrating range. Porcelain was extremely yellow on me, and the rest of the “light” shades were too dark. I don’t overly love matte foundations, but I figured I would try to find my shade in those, and I did!

Tarte released a statement that they posted on their Instagram story stating that they were releasing about 10 more shades for women of color, but in my opinion, they should’ve of released them from the start.

Tarte, if you ever read this, I love your brand, but I have a voice, and I will use it. This shade range needs to step up its A game. ASAP.

But now here’s the review!

The foundation itself is honestly beautiful, and I have really enjoyed wearing it. I love the applicator, I love the finish, and I love how smooth and full coverage it looks.

I always blend my foundation with a beauty blender and I have ALWAYS used either the Beauty Blender branded ones or the Real Technique ones.

I took pictures of my face before I applied it, when I applied it, halfway through, and fully blended! Since this is a foundation review, I didn’t use a primer before applying or use any color corrector or concealer.

First I applied the foundation all over my face. I usually go under my eyes first and fan out the foundation, then put some on my chin, down my nose, and then onto my forehead! after that, I blended out half of it so you could see the finish vs the just applied, and then I blended the full face!

 

Overall I really do like this foundation. You do have to work fairly quickly with it, but it is very smooth and I really do like the matte finish!

3 THINGS TO KEEP IN MIND:

  1. It does oxidize quite a bit.
    • I noticed in the store that the shades I swatched did oxidize a lot. So when you choose your shade, shop around for a good 15min and then go back and pick your shade. 
  2. If you don’t set it, it gets VERY cakey by itself.
    • I wanted to see if there was a huge difference between baking it, using powder, and not setting it with anything. there was. if you bake it or use powder the finish of it is so smooth and perfect and if you don’t use anything, it tends to looks very dry and cakey within hours.
  3. This foundation is very full coverage and buildable.
    • the only reason why I am adding this is that a lot of foundations that are buildable don’t start this full coverage on your skin.

I give the foundation itself a 10/10. I haven’t found a foundation that matches my skin tone this well in a VERY long time. As for the line of foundations, it’s a 3/10. The shade range is what took off that many points. Again, it’s an amazing foundation, but the shade range is honestly upsetting. It’s 2018, if you don’t have colors for everyone, don’t advertise it!

From women in general, Tarte, you need to step up your shade game!

If you like this post and have any ideas on things you would like me to review, drop a comment below!

QOTD: Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something, and that this thing, at whatever cost, must be attained. – Marie Curie

College Road Trip: Sonoma State University

Before I start on how much I absolutely LOVED this school, here’s a funny story:

We drove to Sonoma from Chico, we hit some traffic as the sunset began. I drove for half the journey and my stepdad drove for the other half. We reached the hotel around 8pm. We got into the room, got out our essentials for the night, and then my stepdad wanted to see how far the campus was from our hotel. As he looked down at his phone, he froze and exclaimed,

“this can’t be right” then I asked, “what can’t be?”

At that moment he discovered that SONOMA STATE UNIVERSITY ISN’T ACTUALLY IN SONOMA

Trust me, I’m doing you a favor by telling you this now before you make the same mistake we did.

Now on to the school.

Sonoma State is a California state school, located in Rohnert Park

Some facts that I was dying to know before I went were the requirements:

AVERAGE GPA: 3.24

SAT: (NEW) 960-1080

ACT: 19-24

ACCEPTANCE RATE: 77%

Sonoma State also offers an immense amount of diverse Majors, Minors, Graduate Programs, Credentials, and Certificates. Along with that, they also have their General Education.

Personally, I would love to either major in English with a minor in Creative Writing, or major in Business Administration with a minor in either Psychology or Sociology.  I might even double major, who knows.

Sonoma State has an extraordinary tranquil campus. The building’s architecture is incredible and everything inside is renovated. Not to mention the amount of calmness even amongst the college life. To get a feel for the campus I decided to do my research by using YouTube, as any teenager does. There are multiple videos of Sonoma State, but this drone overview is my absolute favorite one. It really does capture all of the campus.

The campus, when you first pull up to it, is completely secluded with trees. To the left and right of the parking lots are student housing.

The campus has beautiful housing, and yes, it is required for you to live on campus AND have a meal plan your freshman year. The student life there does not seem intimidating whatsoever, so living on campus your first year will be a great opportunity to make life-long friends.

Now, onto the rest of the campus.

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There are multiple buildings for different majors/categories and all of them are extremely beautiful in their own ways. There are a few structures that have a lot of meaning as to why they were built onto the campus, such as the Bacon, Eggs & Toast, the Anne Frank Tree, and the Holocaust Memorial.

My favorite buildings were the Student Center and the Library.

The Student Center has a very new and updated feel right as you walk in. In it, there is a university store (where I bought a sweatshirt and a sticker), a place to study and socialize, and the kitchen.

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The Library is so beautiful, the exterior kind of reminds me of “It’s A Small World” in Disneyland, let me know in the comments if you think so too! There is also a Charlie Brown Cafe (CBC), which to me was very personal since my family grew up on those books and movies

Overall, Sonoma State was extremely beautiful and I will definitely be applying there in the fall!

Charlotte Elizabeth

MeMy name is Charlotte Elizabeth.Two things everyone here is probably wanting to know:

I’m 17, This is my first blog

Yes, this is my first ever blog post, blog website, domain name, and my very first time I’m deciding to share my thoughts, day to day life, experiences, and a bunch of other stuff with the internet.

But who am I really?

Well, I could describe myself in so many different ways and say a ton of stuff that isn’t true about myself because this is the internet. but this is a blog. MY blog. I want to be as honest as I can.

I am 17, I am from California, and I want to be able to share my interests with the world around me.

I am very obsessed with makeup, finding the next beauty product, traveling, and going on adventures wherever I can find them.

I love being creative. I paint, draw, write, and I am VERY obsessed with photography. I also love to spend more than enough time on YouTube, social media platforms such as Instagram and Snapchat.

I have a lot planned for this blog and I really do hope that anyone reading this will stay on this journey with me.

Feel free to leave me a comment, question, or ideas for my blog. You can either submit them here or comment on my posts.